CHANGE

“Go with the flow”

So it is coming to the end of official day 3 on the boat.

Let me put that sentence into some context. We decided, what seems like a long time ago now that as a family we would venture to the Norfolk broads for 7 whole days on a cruiser…plus a dog. What an experience this is already turning out to be, for many many reasons, good and bad.

This great idea first came when I was originally only going to have about a month at home in between my first year nursing placement finishing and the start of second year, so in that time I told mum that I would prefer a holiday that everyone could come on including my puppy! This was back when a month at home didn’t seem like a very long time, so time was very precious. Since booking the holiday and actually moving back home in February the idea was starting to sound more and more peculiar. Why on earth would you put a crazy cocker spaniel, a pair of princessey parents, a 13 year old boy and a soon to be married couple… Oh yeah and me(!!!) on a boat for a week. It has come with some serious entertainment alongside some very honest chitter chatter.

Swings and roundabouts though and would you believe it, so far so good. The weather has been ideal thankfully ((mum and sister have even whipped out the shorts))

This made us think what a change this has been for all of us and how good it has been. When I think August summer holiday, as everyone dreams, it consists of a sandy beach somewhere gorgeous with lots and lots of sun with a cool drink to hand. Not, I need to row across a massive river at 7 am so my overly excited/anxious/mad dog can have his long awaited morning wee and poo. As it turns out, that has probably been the highlight of the trip so far. I have never seen such peace and tranquillity, and I really took that moment to appreciate my holiday.

Something about stepping out of our comfort zones and changing things up from what we normally get up to day to day has been so valuable. It has sparked up a few interesting conversations about ourselves like, what we actually really enjoy and who really can adapt the best… ((my brother probably being the first to admit that he really likes routine)).

While routine has been essential for me to get back into the swing of things again, this change even if it’s just been a little change in location or rather the massive change in the way I am living, I have probably learnt more in the past 3 days about my family, myself included ((particularly that my dog can genuinely run all day if there is a ball on the go)) that I would never have discovered if we had kept to the norm or even our usual summer holidays ((when I often don’t even spend any time with my family..))

The idea of change fills me with such excitement, I love the potential of what the future holds and I love planning and being able to set my-self goals ((I love a list, especially a list of goals)). The thing I struggle with is the unexpected change and the unknown future. One thing that this holiday has been successful with, is being able to throw a curve ball when you least expect it. Adapting to an environment I am not used to is challenging but I am now trying hard not fear it and just “go with the flow” instead. I am really enjoying this experience of not knowing what is next and challenging myself. When I do slip nicely back into my routine I will try and leave an element of surprise and see what comes of adding a little bit of change… or maybe I will in the future…who knows…

xxx

Author: Youwishbailey's Blog

I am 20 and living the Cambridge life, hoping to share a few bits 'n bobs about my journey of mental illness. Generally sharing some of the ways I am coping ((or not coping)) in this 21st Century world - which, can I add is full of the 3 D's, Dramas, Dilemmas, and Dicks.

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