There is no place like home

Word of the day: FLUMP

Ok, I am going to put it out there straight away that I am definitely a home bird. I love everything about it, its familiarity, comfort, safety, the company, that sense of being somewhere where you belong.

When I think about some of my past decision like my move to Scotland, it seriously baffles me, like what on earth was I thinking! It was very ambitious of me to think that I would make it all 4 years..really long years at that – for some that move away from home is completely the right decision and I have seen so many of my friends who have flourished and do amazing things and I love seeing and hearing about what they get up to!

!!!WELL DONE TO ALL MY GALS AND GUYS WHO HAVE OFFICIALLY FINISHED THEIR FIRST YEAR OF NURSING – I am genuinely so proud of you all, you’ve done amazing!!!!

…But without making decisions like University, I came to know myself a bit more and now I fully understand what home and family means to me, I honestly have no idea what on earth I would be doing without them ((thanks guys)).

On the topic of family, this post was sort of inspired by my brother who has just returned from a 2 week tour around South Africa with his school ((I know, how unbelievably cool is that!..not jealous at all)) he came back this morning with SOooosoo many tales to tell but the first thing he said was “There’s no place like home”. There is nothing like that return home from Holiday, or a friend’s house, or just generally a really long day out, where you come back to your own space and can just flump – I can’t think of a better more onomatopoeic word than flump. It’s that motion of being able release the mental and physical exhaustion of well, everything! It is never something I really ever thought about or appreciated but that feeling is such a comfort to me now.

I am so impressed by my brother who is 12, to already have that appreciation of being and coming home. When I was 12, the last thing I wanted was to be at home, even up until about now I have always had the mind-set that it was really uncool to like your family, or want to be at home and I felt this enormous pressure ((mainly from the “expectations” the world around me has… cheers social media…)) to grow up and leave home and become my own person…whatever that meant!?!? I have had my fair share of adventures being away from home and family ((I mean in comparison to some of my friends who have travelled worldwide, months on end, my adventures may seem relatively small but being away still counts…right??)) during those times away I thought that if I missed home or didn’t want to be away from home it made me seem weak, immature and allowed me to be vulnerable and ultimately that people would really judge me for it.

Since then, I have done a complete U-turn and now I absolutely love telling people about what I get up to with my family and in my home, and talking about home and living at home, I have finally given in and accepted that I love ALL things home!!! ((I literally don’t want to leave..Sorry guys, you are just too good)) I am not ashamed because my family is awesome ((weird)), and you know what, my weekends playing tennis and going to garden centres and watching movies are wicked and I am incredibly lucky.

I could sing praises about my immediate family all day (as in mum, dad, sister, brother, grandparents) but it would be rude to ignore all the other families I have had across my life. School for me was one massive girly family, which was crazy ((trust me)) but a hell of a lot of fun. When I play sport the people I surround myself with are like a weird little competitive family. FRIENDS!!! They are your chosen family, you can actually pick and select the people you love the most out of everyone you meet and share everything and anything with, that is the coolest kind of family.

So, to everyone else who either secretly loves home or family, don’t be ashamed to broadcast it! For me, it’s a warm safe environment I get to be my complete self in and realising that has been such a game changer in terms of my happiness and doing what is right for me… but it has taken a bit of a while to come to that and wish I had someone else saying “ignore everyone else because there really is no place like home.”

xxxx

Author: Youwishbailey's Blog

I am 20 and living the Cambridge life, hoping to share a few bits 'n bobs about my journey of mental illness. Generally sharing some of the ways I am coping ((or not coping)) in this 21st Century world - which, can I add is full of the 3 D's, Dramas, Dilemmas, and Dicks.

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